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I have totally been slacking the past two days on doing my "4000 Questions" blogging. I just really have not felt up to much lately.

I think it is steming from my experience with fatigue from a couple of weeks ago. Although I've been feeling better, I still haven't felt 100%. In fact, over the past week I've been in a funk. I've been in a bad mood, I've had a bad attitude about everything, & people & situations have been getting on my nerves more than they ususally do. Last week, I blamed it on my period but that is over & I'm still moody.

Yesterday, I had to stay over about an hour & a half for some stupid meeting. The meeting wasn't that bad as far as work relates "meetings" go & they were nice enough to schedule one at a time that would be somewhat convienient for night shift workers, but, like I said, my attitude was less than stellar. I was annoyed at just about everything they said & did. I refused to smile & I was just waiting on them to ask me something so I could tell them where they could put their stupid ideas. Yes, I know, very "Christian" of me.

I know this "attitude" has little to do with the meeting, or the people running it, or even the fact that we had a busy night & more to do with what is going on in my body right now. I'm not sure if I'm still having a nutrition issue or if I'm just not getting enough sleep or if I'm over doing it or if all the processed foods I eat are finally taking it's toll on my body or if it is something else. I was actually worried a little last night that maybe depression was starting to rear it's ugly head once again & actually considered going by a vitamin shop this weekend & picking up some St. John's Wort. I've never really been sure if it works like it claims but it might be worth a try.

I'm feeling much better tonight. I think I've finally caught up on my sleep (even though the "experts" say you can't "catch up" on sleep). I still feel a little weird in my head (kind of a vertigo type feeling that sometimes occompanies sinus issues) but my mood seems to have stabilized a bit. I'm actually considering making an appointment with my doctor for another physical (lab work & discussion, basically) since it has been about 6 or 7 months since my last one & with all the exercising & weight I've lost there is no telling what they might say. If I do make the appointment, I'll probably mention this funk I've been in even if I'm better when I go, just to see what he/she would say about it.

I say "he/she" because my doctor is a man but his PA is a woman. I would actually rather see her than him anyway. Not that I don't like him, I just started this whole thing with her & she is a runner & would love to talk to her about that. Also, since she does work out quite a bit & really pushes nutrition &, I think, holistic healing more than pill poping, I would like to get her thoughts on organic vs processed food diets & what types of vitamins she thinks I should be taking.

I'm not one of those granola-eating, tree-hugging, hippies that most people here in the South associate organic food eaters with, but I do think it is probably a smarter way to eat. I don't believe I'll ever go exclusively non-processed foods but I do want to try to limit it as much as I can. I have several friends who have taken this road & swear by the results. They feel healthier, sleep better, & have more energy.

I don't feel ready to do this just yet & when I do, I won't just one day throw everything out & buy all organic. I am going to try to shop once a week at Sprouts right now & try to swap out some of my normal foods. I also want to try to start adding at least one whole fruit into my daily menu. I have started drinking a low sodium V8 once a day since I have such a hard time getting in my veggies. I recently bought some apples & a couple of oranges. I also bought some pears. I tried a pear when I was in college & thought it quite boring but maybe now that I'm off most sweetners & drinks & fruits taste way sweeter, I'll like it. We'll see.